Thursday, September 22, 2005
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
ah-ah,ah-ah,ah-ah,aah-ah
ah-ah,ah-ah,ah-ah
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
ah-ah,ah-ah,ah-ah,aah-ah
ah-ah,ah-ah
I walk alone
I walk a...
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...
most people think this song is very sad... I kinda agree but then this is what i feel now and i'm not sad!!! I really want someone to find me and appreciate me for who i am... But if it takes time for this person to appear then nvm... just let things move slowly. I'm ok with that. I'm okay with walking alone... Yes, walking alone is lonely, scary and really tiring sometimes. This i cannot lie about... But so what? Walking alone makes me stronger, it has made me what i am today... so what's wrong even if i have to walk alone for a while more?
Honestly, nothing is wrong with walking alone. So why am i talking so much about wanting someone special in the past few entries? Cos i kinda lost my confidence a few months back.... I doubt myself now. I wonder if i am as strong as i used to be. I wonder if i am still as attractive as i was. Now, i dress up more, i play more, i am more girl girl than ever before. BUT, that does not mean that i am more attractive than before. In fact, i think through all these dressing up and what not, i have lost a part of me. I don't have the character i had before... in chinese, they call it 性格。I guess i can never deny that he hurt me and made me start to doubt myself. But then it really isn't his fault... I should have been smarter... A little more discretion should have been exercised. But it's all in the past already... There's nothing i can do to turn back time. All i can do is try to figure out how i can get old self back... It's gonna be a long long journey but i have to go through it. Alone if necessary... If i dun, i will never be able to move on.
And oh... another entry that starts with lyrics... hahahah... Never knew i was so so so so into songs and their lyrics. =P
YYY
